I usually have explanatory words for how I feel during big moments in my life. But as I search for the right ones now, I come up blank. No words can describe how thankful I am to you. But my heart expands in my chest when I think about the love that was given.
Starting with Reign’s birth, and especially after he was sick, I asked for help in different ways to those who were willing to reach their hands out to me. From financial gifts, to grocery runs, to doing my laundry, to bringing medicine and soup, to lending showers, to watching Kingston, to doctor appointment moral support visits, to loaning cars, to late night texts, to simple encouragements on facebook, to airport rides, to bribing my toddler to get on the plane, to crashing on beds, to watching a movie together, to binging on pizza guilt free, to sharing a glass of wine, to never ending patience, to lending a much needed ear or offering advice... it was all beyond what I anticipated.
The last four months have been challenging to say the least. But coming out of it now, settling back into being a family on a farm in Hawaii, I can look back at it knowing I have chosen my tribe well. The people in my corner, whether it be my home now, or in the past, rallied together to help me and my boys get through.
I am eternally grateful. And I love you.
I look a these pictures, taken by my dear friend Kelsie, the day before we ended our long trip in Colorado, and I see newly realized strength. I see two boys, whom I don’t deserve, looking at me for guidance and love. I see a woman with crows feet and more experience in those eyes then years before. I see two gifts given to me, and that I am growing stronger for. I see a mama learning how to to break, and also learning to stand tall. I see smiles and laughter.
But I know it took a lot of teamwork and distractions in order to get these beautiful pictures.
Which is a true testament to how I’m living my life these days. I’m needing teamwork and lots of distractions to get through. And I’m ok with that. It’s worth it.